Hypocrisy?

Sept. 4th, 2007

I live in the norm.

I live in the here and now.

I live through struggle.

I live like there is no tomorrow.

However;

Is there such a thing as not living in the norm? Is it a specific place or a state of mind? I only say I live in it because the way I live has become a norm for me, but then everyone must live in there own special norm land. Yet, if everyone's is different then is it a norm at all?

The here and now is where I'm forced to be. My body lives in it for the here and now is the where I am physically bound. My mind, on the other hand, is looking back with a question, and squinting forward with dream.

When trouble comes I make it through. Usually with no scar to show for the battle I won or lost. But life lingers on and I continue breathing. Breathing is involuntary, though. Sometimes the struggle is so hard and leaves my insides so bloodied I wish a scar would appear for people to see. Or my breathing to slow or even stop just so others could really see what's going on.

I live like there is no tomorrow. True enough, I guess...if I was a hypocrit like everyone who over uses this saying. If I was promised a tomorrow I cant really say that I would suddenly change my attitude and let things slide, but then again, if I was promised no tomorrow, honestly, I would probably laugh it off until I was found dead the next morning with an ironic smirk across my untrusting face.